reevaluate: v. - revise or renew one's assessment

circumstances have brought me to wits end.
stability has become a rarity.
anger and frustration have become the norm.

why is it so hard to see eye to eye with someone when you both are damn near exactly the same? its getting harder and harder to do and i'm starting to wonder what i got myself into. i know he loves and cares for me. i see that when we aren't going at each other like north and south koreans.

i have my own set of issues. i'm needy, moody, and ever so impatient. i've been so used to getting my way every time and now that i've moved out on my own, well, lets just say that Angela getting her way is like people in hell getting water. but, slowly, i'm getting used to it.

learning to live with and be around some one 24/7 that's just like me except with a penis is almost the hardest thing i've ever had to do. i want to continue to do it. i just have to learn that my needs, wants, and whatever[s] don't get to come first anymore. somedays, yes. but not all the time.

i guess it's all like playing a video game... practice will eventually make perfect. but until the perfection comes, frustration is going to damn near kill me. i guess in the end, as long as we both get that "happily ever after", i can say that it was all well played and all the small battles in between were well worth it.

so, as a recent turn of events have occurred in my life [moving] and finding what i feel is the best thing for me [will] i have found that i am content.

is it contentment that we long for or is it the feeling of knowing that we aren't alone?
knowing that there is someone there to turn to at your weakest moment?
  someone to share the world with?

what is it that completes everything that we know or once knew?

and once we find it... how do we hold onto it?

i am that look in [your] eyes.
i am that smile on [your] face.
i am that feeling [you] get inside when you least expect it.
i am....

i will smile because [you] put it there.
i will laugh because [you] brought it on.
i will be stronger because [you] are behind me.
i will....

i will be hopeful because [you] bring it.
i will be faithful because [you] deserve it.
i will be full of life because [you] fill me with it.
i will...

i want to turn from the darkness because [you] bring an encouraging light.
i want to forget the past because [you] are now my present and future.
i want....

i am...
i will...
i want...

to be everything i need to be.
and everything [you] can hope for me to be.

because [you] are not him.
[you] are [you].
and for that, i am thankful everyday.